“The Way You Made Me Feel” by Chloe

i hate you and you make me sick now

but i loved you and you made me feel good

you disgust me and you make me feel small now

but i loved you and you made me feel larger than life

i loathe you and your face makes me cry now

but i loved you and you made me smile

you kill me and i wish you were dead now

but i loved you and you made me feel so alive

you hurt me and you scare me now

but i loved you and you made me feel safe

see i hate all the things that you make me feel now

cause i remember the things that you made me feel then

then i felt happy, safe, and alive

now i feel small, i feel sick, sad, and scared

i loved you and you made me feel safe

but you hurt me and you scare me now

i loved you and you made me feel so alive

but you kill me and i wish you were dead now

i loved you and you made me smile

but i loathe you and your face makes me cry now

i loved you and you made me feel larger than life

but you disgust me and you make me feel small now

i loved you and you made me feel good

but i hate you and you make me sick now

-Chloe

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